Okay, before I start, I need you to picture this; me driving down the 403 in my trusty 2003 Chevy Malibu. Shoppers Drug Mart uniform on, singing my heart out, and bawling like a baby.
Can you see it? Just put a pin in that image, because it will come into play later, I promise.
Aaron has started a sermon series titled, “I Love That Verse”, so to stay on that topic, I'm sharing one of my favourite verses. This was difficult, because different verses have been significant to me in different seasons of my life. But one that has stayed with me these last couple of years is Psalm 61:2 which says this; “From the end of the earth I call to you when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”
This passage is talking about refuge, but I've always found that this verse reminds me to have a right perspective. When I get caught up in myself – in my struggles, frustrations, successes – I need to be taken out of my own perspective in order to get a glimpse of God's plan. Sometimes we don't even get that glimpse, and then the promise of His plan has to be sufficient, even when you want much more.
Real talk, it was probably close to 4 years ago now that I realized I needed to quit my (then) current job. I really felt like God was leading me to a new thing.
Which was fine. Really it was.
I like new things, and I don't (really) mind change.
I remember sharing with my small group about this shift, wondering what would come next.
And I would wonder... and wonder... and wonder.
For the next 2 years I would wonder.
I'm a fairly patient person, but this was a bit much, even for me.
And you know what got me through this time? You know, because you can picture it in your head right now! A song that I'd blast on my way to work in my Chevy Malibu, singing my little heart out and bawling like a baby.
It was a song called “You're Already There”. It reminded me that even when I'm lost, when I'm tired, when I just feel done, God has seen the end of my story – the story HE has written – because He is already there, my whole life laid out in front of Him.
And that's the perspective I need. That's the reminder I have to trust in.
From God's perspective, he sees the grand design of my story, of all of our stories.
And he leads us through our stories; each agonizing and joyful step of the way.
In His perfect will and time, God did bring me to my next steps, and I'm so thankful for that. But I'm also thankful for the time of waiting – the time when my heart was faint – because it taught me look up to the rock that is higher than I.
Hear my cry, O God, listen to my prayer; from the end of the earth I call to you when my heart is faint.
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I, for you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the enemy.
Let me dwell in your tent forever! Let me take refuge under the shelter of your wings! Selah
- Psalm 61:1-4
Jolene Sanders, Director of Worship
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